....you are white [for kayla caffey]

"what the hell
for real
where has my head been
i have been a walking tree
forgetting i have the leaves
to cover me
and the fruit to give others
but do i taste the beauty
and the benefits myself
im gonna try again tomorrow
im gonna try again tonight
stretch out your limbs
reach out your hands
scream for life
oh God oh God
take away the lies."

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this blog is dedicated to: kayla caffey

s i l l y.
encouraging.
fresh.
mistaken for being misunderstood.
intelligent.
and like jordan: is a friend. (who holds to that word in every way possible)



i love text messaging.
because sometimes it gets out of hand.

Jordan: "its actually not stressful at all...i dont believe in stress :D"
Stephen: "do you believe in bears jordan. grizzly bears attacks are stressful. i can tell you a story."
Jordan: "bahahhahahahaa! STEPHEN! dont you know im the bear slayer...haha tell me this story."
Stephen: "i was in toys r us and we got an odd shipment from alaska. we opened up a box. and BAM! a freaking grizzly bear. what to do jordan. but alas being in a toy store. there is always guns and lightsabers. it was to the death."
Jordan: "bahaha OH MY FREAKING GOODNESS!!! that is unbelievable. TERRIFYING...thank god you were trained with the machette."
Stephen: "so i grabbed a power wheel from the back. the heavy duty hummer. and i screamed. die bearack obama! and he destroyed my ride instantly. but being a crafty kid i snuck behind him and kicked him in the coco puffs! HE DIED ON THE SPOT."
Jordan: "WHAT A MAN!!! who knew toysrus would be son dangerous!! i mean honestly thank god you were there...who knew what would of happened."
Stephen: "so how did you become bear slayer."
Jordan: "its a gift. like a superhero. like batman is my homeboy."
Stephen: "do you wear spandex or have a cape."
Jordan: "Yes!!!! with a big BS in the middle of my suit."
Stephen: "hahahaha oh meaning bull...oh wait bear slayer. jordan im so glad were friends."
Jordan: "HAHAHAHAHA!!!! REALLY!?! YES!!!! dang you cant let this bear slayer thing get global. i have to keep my identity a secret like spiderman and hannah montana."
Stephen: "what should my superhero name be because i need one now."
Jordan: "i think it should be cool whip!! but i dont know why i just like it hahahahahahahahahaha"
Stephen: "you always brighten my day jordan. always."
Jordan: "blehhhhh stephen! you ARE MY SOUL BROTHER."

i was told this tonight.

"steve you have no idea...
chillin on the wooden steps,
eating fat food,
talking about jesus.
and the o.t.
and realizing that you were no joke
and that you actually knew something about the bible.
that was gold right there."
---sarah dean

i wanna live a life like that.
every day.
hooah.

latest news.
find out around november seventh when i leave for basic training.
its gonna probably be in the spring.
in lackland texas.
near san antonio.
and i find out my job.
i need to do pushups still tonight.
and.
run.
tomorrow?
yep.

and.
work.

.stephenjoseph


latest favorite music:

eminem
chris tomlin
rascal flatts

latest favorite movies:

american history x
8 mile
the dark knight

finding shiloh [for jordan bryant]

"a real girl is rare
far from the comical that ornate the scene
make up like christmas trees
shine bright
and to hold the presents only to be devoured
by mornings light

but im looking for shiloh
a quiet place
the simple place where samuel found you
and hope that there you will be"
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this one is for: jordan bryant.

hopeful.
true.
shines.
smiles.
and is a friend (who holds to that word in every way possible).

so officially i am now part of the united states air force.
its a crazy feeling...well....
first. letting the country do what they see fit with you.
second. allowing the Lord meet you there.
third. trusting Him in all of this.

and now.
with my latest divine tragedy.
i say that within the most hopeful way.
God is.
im not.

.stephenjoseph

for kielly lewis and those who pray

"im dancing like an elephant
clumsy but so fun
i just heard from you for the first time
in over two years
i wont tell you anything more
i just want to hear you laugh again"
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each blog will be dedicated to someone and each one will have a poem.

this one is for kielly lewis.
admirable.
clever.
and loves jesus.
simple.
true.
and awesome.

thank you for you who pray.
tomorrow is a big day.
i officially join the united states air force.

.stephenjoseph



latest favorite movies:
into the wild
the dark knight
in the land of women

latest favorite musicians:
regina spektor
jack's mannequin
underoath